When I was little I wanted to move all around the country and live everywhere. I’m still like that in a lot of ways, and hope to travel all around the world and live in different parts of the country throughout my life. So far in my life I’ve lived in three states, Massachusetts, Georgia, and Wisconsin where I live now and have most of my life. I guess it’s just what I’m used to, but I don’t like being stuck in one place for too long and I haven’t moved in about five years and to me that’s a while to be stuck in one place, so I’m pretty ready to be done with school and move somewhere else in the country.
From around age four to about age 12 I wanted to go to college in California and live there. I don’t know what it was about Cali life that I loved but I whatever it is it’s still drawing me in. Lately I’ve been thinking about where I would want to go to college and I’m pretty confident I don’t want to stay here in the Midwest. I liked living in Georgia a lot but I’ve lived there and I want to experience as many new places as possible. Around age 12 I’ve wanted to go to Seattle. I’m not sure why but it probably had to do with the fact that Jimmi Hendrix and Kurt Cobain are from Washington. I don’t think I would want to live in Washington, but I could see myself staying out there for a few months just seeing what it’s like out there. I could see myself living out in California for a few years though.
I’m not sure exactly what I want to with my life, but I have narrowed it down to a few things, and I think it would be a lot easier for me to achieve those things if I moved and lived out in California. There are things I could do here and Lord knows it’s way cheaper here than somewhere like California. That being said I don’t like being in one place and want to travel as much as I can while I’m physically able. I also want to travel a lot while I’m young because I won’t have to worry about anyone but myself. If I were to wait until I was in my mid thirties to travel then I might have to worry about a spouse or children in my life. I don’t want to have to travel knowing that I have responsibilities back home or people I have to worry about. I want to travel knowing that I’m having a great experience and am enjoying myself and my life without feeling like I’m leaving anything behind.
As I’ve been writing this I’ve had a mini epiphany about school. Not anything that will make me spend all my free time studying or spending hours doing homework on the weekend, but something that will keep me motivated to try my best at school and give it some effort. Something I’ve heard recently from someone I look up to (his name is Jarek 1:20 he’s a wrestler, magician, and film editor, and he makes videos on YouTube) is if your why is big enough your what should be easy. For example, if someone is asking, what do I have to do to be more confident, then before they start trying to find out the what they should think well why do I want to be more confident, and then their what will come easy. With that being said I was applying that method of thinking to my whole what am I going to do with my life situation, and without realizing it I answered my why in the above paragraphs. I just explained to myself why I want to travel and move out of the Midwest. Your why should always be bigger than your what because if your why doesn’t really have any meaning then your what isn’t going to have any motivation behind it.
Since I found out my why in the paragraphs above I’ve found out what my what is. For me it’s to try my best at school, so that it’ll be easier for me travel to California and possibly other places for college and afterwards. If I suck it up and do good on all the tests and things in school then there’s a better chance I’ll get a scholarship that can help me a whole lot when moving to go to college. The more money I save on paying for college itself, the more money I can spend traveling and enjoying my young adult years to come.
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